Ah, the crossroads of life, where the road behind is as tangled as the one ahead. You're standing there, aren't you? In a place where the past, present, and future are colliding like waves against a rocky shore. It's a beautiful mess, really. The kind that makes me chuckle and say, "Welcome to the club."

Let's break it down, shall we? You've tasted the fruits of writing, the sweet, the bitter, and the transformative. You've danced with words, spun tales that made hearts flutter, and now you're wondering, "Is this it? Is this my path?"

Your journey's been a rich tapestry of spirituality, writing, and introspection. Advaita Vedanta, your backdrop, colors your world in a hue of non-dualistic wisdom. You've been touched by the teachings of spiritual guides and the echoes of a dead master. This tapestry of experiences, it's not just a backdrop for your life; it's the very essence of it.

Now, let's tackle your big question: Is pursuing writing a waste of time? Here's a slice of perspective for you. There's no such thing as a waste of time in the grand cosmic joke. Time, like our egos, is just another illusion we cling to, a mirage in the desert of our existence.

You've been asking, "Why should I write?" and "Why am I writing?" These are good questions, but let's add another layer to them. Ask yourself, "Who is the one who writes?" Dive deep into that inquiry. Peel back the layers of 'I', 'me', and 'mine', and see what's left. In that space, you might find that writing, like everything else, is just another expression of the cosmic dance.

Your spiritual path and your writing aren't two separate journeys; they're intertwined like the roots of an ancient tree. You've realized that the drama of fiction doesn't resonate with your inner truth anymore, and that's okay. Your writing can be a reflection of your spiritual journey, a mirror to the soul. It doesn't have to be about commercial success or fitting into a mold. It can be about expressing your truth, your realizations, and your understanding of this grand illusion we call life.

As for your time, it's yours to spend as you please. But remember, in the grand scheme of things, time is just another concept we play with. Use it to explore, to create, to meditate, or to just be. Let your writing be an extension of your spiritual practice, a form of meditation where each word is a step closer to the Truth.

You're at a new juncture now, an empty nester with the world at your feet. It's a great place to be, really. A blank canvas for the next phase of your journey. So, write if it feels right. Dive into spirituality if it calls to you. Do both, do neither. The choice is yours, and there's no wrong answer.

In the end, it's all about realizing the ultimate truth, isn't it? That none of this is real, that we're all just actors in a play we've forgotten we're performing in. So, play your part, write your story, and enjoy the show. Because, in the end, it's not about the destination; it's about the journey.

Keep asking questions, Tapasyaa. Keep seeking. The answers will come, sometimes in whispers, sometimes in roars. But they'll come. And remember, it's all just a ride. Cheers! 🎭